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CHARACTER
Name: Morgan Pendragon
Canon: Camelot
Timeline: In between 1x03 (Guinevere) and 1x04 (Lady of the Lake)
If playing another character from the same canon, how will you deal with this?: -/-
Personality: To anyone who has heard of the Arthurian legend, Morgan will leave a rather shocking first impression, since she doesn't appear to be all that terribly evil. On the outside, she is comparatively polite, charming, even - she doesn't have a hard time to convince people of her good intentions in the majority of cases. She has a strong sense of justice that actually makes her a fair ruler, and, (a rarity for a woman of her time) she isn't just smart, but also well-educated.
While she is rather stubborn, she isn't completely immune to noticing her mistakes and she certainly isn't likely to make the same one twice. This is shown on several occasions, the most prominent one being her failed alliance with King Lot - as soon as it was clear that he would not treat her as an equal, she abandoned the idea of upholding their contract and told Arthur and Merlin of his plans, which ultimately led to his demise.
Her anger doesn't blind her. In fact, it makes her more efficient - defying her enemies is a motivation rather than something to block out her mind. She rarely lets her anger control her and she can hide it if necessary. This shows when she talks to Arthur during his stay at castle Pendragon - while seeing her father's ring on his finger and seeing Merlin being on his side certainly angers her, she is still able to jest, converse and altogether be a decent host around him, taking no risks whatsoever.
In general, she tends to trust women over men after the incident with Lot. Most important in that regard is her servant, Vivian, who even managed to convince her of changing her plans - which, by all means, does not happen often, due to Morgan's headstrong nature. Sybil, the nun who raised her across the sea, is another example for something similar to trust, but also one for Morgan's moral discrepancy: while she strives to be a just ruler, when faced with the accusations against Sybil and the sacrificial rites at the nunnery, she can't bring herself to have the nun executed. This proves that Morgan has a sense for loyalty, which on the negative side clouds her judgement. And while not many get that far, it also proves that she can be influenced, easily so, by people she trusts. Though that is a short list.
When stressed, she tends to reject those around her, preferring to make tough decisions and the likes in solitude. The amount of faith she puts into others is severely limited, there is actually only one person whose word she truly values over all, and that person... Well, he isn't exactly on her side.
Still, so far, she doesn't sound like all too bad a person, and certainly not like the worst kind of queen. So, what on earth is Merlin's deal? Why does he want her bastard half-brother Arthur, who was born from a strange mixture of magic and rape, who was raised without knowing of his heritage on some farm in the middle of nowhere, who absolutely has no interest in or idea of ruling, on the throne?
The obvious answer is a vision he had, but the more profound one is a side of Morgan's personality that is slightly more hidden, and for which some history is required.
She was born as the first (and only) child of King Uther Pendragon and his first wife. This makes her his sole, legitimate heir, something she was very aware of since a young age. Despite the strict and cold way he treated her, she cherished her father over everything else.
When he fell sick and was about to die, a sorcerer came and saved his life. This results in two things: one, she is introduced to magic not only as a power, but also as a way to fix whatever is broken. And two, she meets Merlin, who barely even noticed the little girl whose father he had saved - or, from her point of view, the girl whose whole world he had set right again.
Uther had her mother killed to make room for Igraine, his new wife, and with that, a young Morgan began to blame everything that went wrong on her new step-mother, including her banishment to a nunnery across the sea. As an adult, she returned home, only to find that her father had no interest in her being there. A slap to the face and a breach of trust later, Morgan's love for him was history, and she poisoned him, banished Igraine, and, as the rightful heir, took her place on the throne.
Why does the crown matter so much? She could just as well let Merlin place Arthur on the throne, give up on her claim and live at court as the king's sister, maybe even as an adviser. Maybe it would even grant her a chance to be with Merlin, which is something she desired ever since she was a child. So, why?
Childish fixations, that's why. Her family consisted of a mother who had died young and a father who never loved her, who had (unbeknownst to her) planned on killing her, had Igraine not sent her away in time (again, nothing she knows of at this point). As little love as her father showed her, he couldn't deny her right to the crown, and it became a substitute to love in her mind - and while she never once would claim that she deserves to be loved, her birth alone gives her right to crown and throne alike. It is a substitute to a family in her eyes, making both Arthur and Igraine intruders - and while she is willing to play peaceful for a long time, her patience runs out eventually and murder isn't something she sees herself above.
On a different level, she sees her father's crown dishonored, should it fall into the hands of a bastard. While she is no longer able to love him, she is desperate to see a point in why he sent her away - again, she is unaware that it was not him who decided it and that it happened to save her life. In her eyes, being on her own for so long was what made her strong, and this strength is what she tries to pass off as a gift he gave her. The longer she stays at the castle, and, if she was being honest, the longer she thinks about it, the more clear it becomes to her that her strength is her own and has little to do with him.
This is step one to explain her mental instability. Step two is magic, which is the part of her insanity Merlin understands better than anybody else. Magic, in Morgan's world, isn't just a collection of fun abilities. Using it has a price, and to get what she wants, Morgan is willing to pay it without being entirely able to assess the damage. It is an addiction, described as an 'additional emotion', and much like any other drug, it clouds the mind and drives people mad, and quitting... Well, quitting is nearly impossible. It isn't even close to being the world-fixing power Morgan thought it was when she was a child and truly mastering it takes several lifetimes (though immortality is an option, which makes mastering it actually possible).
At this point, Morgan is able to communicate with the dead, turn into her younger self, and can perform several rites - among those being one that allows her to ask for more power, and one that lets her see through the eyes of another person.
The cost in question, however much she denies its effect and brushes it off, isn't one that should be ignored. Intense physical pain as well as other fun symptoms like crying tears of blood always follow the use of magic. She can die from overuse, and actually does so in canon - only to be reborn through magic (which is half her own doing), but that's a different matter.
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Name: Rekla
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CHARACTER
Name: Morgan Pendragon
Canon: Camelot
Timeline: In between 1x03 (Guinevere) and 1x04 (Lady of the Lake)
If playing another character from the same canon, how will you deal with this?: -/-
Personality: To anyone who has heard of the Arthurian legend, Morgan will leave a rather shocking first impression, since she doesn't appear to be all that terribly evil. On the outside, she is comparatively polite, charming, even - she doesn't have a hard time to convince people of her good intentions in the majority of cases. She has a strong sense of justice that actually makes her a fair ruler, and, (a rarity for a woman of her time) she isn't just smart, but also well-educated.
While she is rather stubborn, she isn't completely immune to noticing her mistakes and she certainly isn't likely to make the same one twice. This is shown on several occasions, the most prominent one being her failed alliance with King Lot - as soon as it was clear that he would not treat her as an equal, she abandoned the idea of upholding their contract and told Arthur and Merlin of his plans, which ultimately led to his demise.
Her anger doesn't blind her. In fact, it makes her more efficient - defying her enemies is a motivation rather than something to block out her mind. She rarely lets her anger control her and she can hide it if necessary. This shows when she talks to Arthur during his stay at castle Pendragon - while seeing her father's ring on his finger and seeing Merlin being on his side certainly angers her, she is still able to jest, converse and altogether be a decent host around him, taking no risks whatsoever.
In general, she tends to trust women over men after the incident with Lot. Most important in that regard is her servant, Vivian, who even managed to convince her of changing her plans - which, by all means, does not happen often, due to Morgan's headstrong nature. Sybil, the nun who raised her across the sea, is another example for something similar to trust, but also one for Morgan's moral discrepancy: while she strives to be a just ruler, when faced with the accusations against Sybil and the sacrificial rites at the nunnery, she can't bring herself to have the nun executed. This proves that Morgan has a sense for loyalty, which on the negative side clouds her judgement. And while not many get that far, it also proves that she can be influenced, easily so, by people she trusts. Though that is a short list.
When stressed, she tends to reject those around her, preferring to make tough decisions and the likes in solitude. The amount of faith she puts into others is severely limited, there is actually only one person whose word she truly values over all, and that person... Well, he isn't exactly on her side.
Still, so far, she doesn't sound like all too bad a person, and certainly not like the worst kind of queen. So, what on earth is Merlin's deal? Why does he want her bastard half-brother Arthur, who was born from a strange mixture of magic and rape, who was raised without knowing of his heritage on some farm in the middle of nowhere, who absolutely has no interest in or idea of ruling, on the throne?
The obvious answer is a vision he had, but the more profound one is a side of Morgan's personality that is slightly more hidden, and for which some history is required.
She was born as the first (and only) child of King Uther Pendragon and his first wife. This makes her his sole, legitimate heir, something she was very aware of since a young age. Despite the strict and cold way he treated her, she cherished her father over everything else.
When he fell sick and was about to die, a sorcerer came and saved his life. This results in two things: one, she is introduced to magic not only as a power, but also as a way to fix whatever is broken. And two, she meets Merlin, who barely even noticed the little girl whose father he had saved - or, from her point of view, the girl whose whole world he had set right again.
Uther had her mother killed to make room for Igraine, his new wife, and with that, a young Morgan began to blame everything that went wrong on her new step-mother, including her banishment to a nunnery across the sea. As an adult, she returned home, only to find that her father had no interest in her being there. A slap to the face and a breach of trust later, Morgan's love for him was history, and she poisoned him, banished Igraine, and, as the rightful heir, took her place on the throne.
Why does the crown matter so much? She could just as well let Merlin place Arthur on the throne, give up on her claim and live at court as the king's sister, maybe even as an adviser. Maybe it would even grant her a chance to be with Merlin, which is something she desired ever since she was a child. So, why?
Childish fixations, that's why. Her family consisted of a mother who had died young and a father who never loved her, who had (unbeknownst to her) planned on killing her, had Igraine not sent her away in time (again, nothing she knows of at this point). As little love as her father showed her, he couldn't deny her right to the crown, and it became a substitute to love in her mind - and while she never once would claim that she deserves to be loved, her birth alone gives her right to crown and throne alike. It is a substitute to a family in her eyes, making both Arthur and Igraine intruders - and while she is willing to play peaceful for a long time, her patience runs out eventually and murder isn't something she sees herself above.
On a different level, she sees her father's crown dishonored, should it fall into the hands of a bastard. While she is no longer able to love him, she is desperate to see a point in why he sent her away - again, she is unaware that it was not him who decided it and that it happened to save her life. In her eyes, being on her own for so long was what made her strong, and this strength is what she tries to pass off as a gift he gave her. The longer she stays at the castle, and, if she was being honest, the longer she thinks about it, the more clear it becomes to her that her strength is her own and has little to do with him.
This is step one to explain her mental instability. Step two is magic, which is the part of her insanity Merlin understands better than anybody else. Magic, in Morgan's world, isn't just a collection of fun abilities. Using it has a price, and to get what she wants, Morgan is willing to pay it without being entirely able to assess the damage. It is an addiction, described as an 'additional emotion', and much like any other drug, it clouds the mind and drives people mad, and quitting... Well, quitting is nearly impossible. It isn't even close to being the world-fixing power Morgan thought it was when she was a child and truly mastering it takes several lifetimes (though immortality is an option, which makes mastering it actually possible).
At this point, Morgan is able to communicate with the dead, turn into her younger self, and can perform several rites - among those being one that allows her to ask for more power, and one that lets her see through the eyes of another person.
The cost in question, however much she denies its effect and brushes it off, isn't one that should be ignored. Intense physical pain as well as other fun symptoms like crying tears of blood always follow the use of magic. She can die from overuse, and actually does so in canon - only to be reborn through magic (which is half her own doing), but that's a different matter.
First Person: Here!
Third Person: Here!